Sunday, November 15, 2015

France - One Person's Account


A friend of mine, from grade school, lives in France. I can tell you that she was not physically hurt in anyway but I am sure that she, her family, and all of France will always live with this horror. This is a copy of a post she left. This is not her writing but from someone who was there.

you never think it will happen to you. It was just a Friday night at a rock show. the atmosphere was so happy and everyone was dancing and smiling. and then when...n the men came through the front entrance and began the shooting, we naively believed it was all part of the show. It wasn't just a terrorist attack, it was a massacre. Dozens of people were shot right in front of me. Pools of blood filled the floor. Cries of grown men who held their girlfriends dead bodies pierced the small music venue. Futures demolished, families heartbroken. in an instant. Shocked and alone, I pretended to be dead for over an hour, lying among people who could see their loved ones motionless.. Holding my breath, trying to not move, not cry - not giving those men the fear they longed to see. I was incredibly lucky to survive. But so many didn't. The people who had been there for the exact same reasons as I - to have a fun Friday night were innocent. This world is cruel. And acts like this are suppose to highlight the depravity of humans and the images of those men circling us like vultures will haunt me for the rest of my life. The way they meticulously aimed at shot people around the standing area I was in the center of without any consideration for human life. It didn't feel real. I expected any moment for someone to say it was just a nightmare. But being a survivor of this horror lets me able to shed light on the heroes. To the man who reassured me and put his life on line to try and cover my brain whilst i whimpered, to the couple whose last words of love kept me believing the good in the world, to the police who succeeded in rescuing hundreds of people, to the complete strangers who picked me up from the road and consoled me during the 45 minutes I truly believed the boy I loved was dead, to the injured man who I had mistaken for him and then on my recognition that he was not Amaury, held me and told me everything was going to be fine despite being all alone and scared himself, to the woman who opened her doors to the survivors, to the friend who offered me shelter and went out to buy new clothes so I wouldn't have to wear this blood stained top, to all of you who have sent caring messages of support - you make me believe this world has the potential to be better. to never let this happen again. but most of this is to the 80 people who were murdered inside that venue, who weren't as lucky, who didn't get to wake up today and to all the pain that their friends and families are going through. I am so sorry. There's nothing that will fix the pain. I feel privileged to be there for their last breaths. And truly believing that I would join them, I promise that their last thoughts were not on the animals who caused all this. It was thinking of the people they loved. As I lay down in the blood of strangers and waiting for my bullet to end my mere 22 years, I envisioned every face that I have ever loved and whispered I love you. over and over again. reflecting on the highlights of my life. Wishing that those I love knew just how much, wishing that they knew that no matter what happened to me, to keep believing in the good in people. to not let those men win. Last night, the lives of many were forever changed and it is up to us to be better people. to live lives that the innocent victims of this tragedy dreamt about but sadly will now never be able to fulfill. RIP angels. You will never be forgotten.

12 comments:

  1. Ya should have warned me I was gonna need several tissues Blondie. Thank you for sharing. Thoughts and prayers with all of those lost, injured and impacted.

    Hugs and blessings...Cat

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  2. Beautiful Blondie. As much as we are horrified at the evil inflicted on innocent people, I too believe that these horrible tragedies highlight the wonderful good there is in our world. We MUST keep believing in the good. That good will win out!
    Thank you for this.

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  3. There is no explaining the action of fanatics who think the only way to make a difference is there way. The good in people just has to out weight the bad....I know of someone who lost her son in Paris...thanks for posting.
    hugs abby

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  4. wow Blondie such an emotional blog. My thoughts are with all those poor people and their families.
    Hugs Lindy

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  5. What a beautiful and touching post Blondie, thank you for sharing. We must continue to believe in the good. My thoughts and prayers to everyone impacted by these horrific acts.

    Sorry I have missed you lately. I have been awol for a while and just now finding some time to catch up with some blog friends.

    Hugs
    Roz

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  6. Hi Blondie, oh how sad, what a truly tragic event, all those poor people
    love Jan,xx

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  7. Oh Blondie that brought tears to my eyes. My heart goes out to the families who have lost loved ones and to France.

    Thank you Blondie.

    Love,
    Ronnie
    xx

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  8. This brought tears to my eyes. Thank you, Blondie, for posting.

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  9. Thank you for posting this Blondie.

    <3

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  10. Thank you for sharing that. It really made the tragedy real.

    Hugs,
    Hermione

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  11. Thank you so much for posting this, Blondie. I have a friend here who is French and she has family in Paris. Indeed it is where she met her husband years ago.

    We had a 'minute' silence in our small town the other day as a young local man was killed in the nightclub. It has made the terror and sadness feel very close to home.

    Hugs
    Ami

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